Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Too young to miss the past??

I have recently found my way over to where you simply enter in your favorite band or song and it will generate a "station" that plays that artist and other similar ones. I typed in "blink 182" my absolutely favorite band in high school and when the music started to play I found my self in a place I thought I left behind. All these memories flooded back and I actually felt like I was back in the late 90s early 2000s there for a minute it was nice and sad at the same time. I mean it feels like I was just there not too very long ago and now I'm a big girl in the big ol' world. Where or where does time go? How can I be 23, married, in pharmacy school and working a full time job?? Seriously these are all the things that I always looked forward to but knew were a long ways away, now all of a sudden I'm here. Wow. All I can say is time flies. I remember when I first became aware of the passing of time. I was 9. Then I started getting a little scared at age 12. "I'm only 12 I thought, still a kid, I have plenty of time to soak in this life I call mine." Now I'm going to be 24 next week. Then I think about the things I'm looking forward to now, future children, graduating pharmacy school, buying our dream home and moving wherever life takes us. Before I know it I'll be reminiscing about these dreams and thoughts I'm having now. How does one make the best of the time we have with us right now?? I can't help but want time to pass when I'm working, but when I'm having fun can I slow it down? Sadly no. This is what happens when I should be in bed sleeping because I have to be at work at 6 am tomorrow morning. Life happens, life is NOW. Don't wish away your life no matter how mundane the present is at that particular moment. I wish I could go back to that Monday in 4th period English staring at the clock.............